Lately, I've been thinking about how fortunate I am to be where I am. Everyone has his share of bad breaks, adversity, and sorrow but, on the whole, I think I've been most fortunate. In fact, I think many of my problems may be self-inflicted. Through conscious effort or otherwise, I am who I am because of the choices I made, the actions I did or did not take. So I'm thinking of taking this next year to reflect on all that I have.
I'm talking a total personal inventory. From physical things from my house to my socks and everything in-between I feel I need to take a personal accounting in order to fully comprehend the abundance I have. I'm also planning on a metaphysical audit as well. A spiritual, and philosophical accounting is well past due. I feel the need to pore over everything that is my life in order to come to some sort of understanding of who the hell Jeff Swain really is when all is said and done.
I've been rolling this idea around in my head for the past few months. Quite frankly, I'm somewhat unnerved to be doing this. It was hard enough to slam the door shut, what with all the skeletons I have, and now I' going to invite them to come out and play. I don't mean to be melodramatic. Quite the contrary. I'm talking about the ordinary, the mundane, the things that go into making our everyday because that is life. Sure we remember the big moments but it is in the other ninety-nine percent where we spend our time living. And that's what I want shed light on.
I have a suspicion that at the end of the year not only will I find that I have all that I'm allowed but, maybe more than I deserve.
I'm talking a total personal inventory. From physical things from my house to my socks and everything in-between I feel I need to take a personal accounting in order to fully comprehend the abundance I have. I'm also planning on a metaphysical audit as well. A spiritual, and philosophical accounting is well past due. I feel the need to pore over everything that is my life in order to come to some sort of understanding of who the hell Jeff Swain really is when all is said and done.
I've been rolling this idea around in my head for the past few months. Quite frankly, I'm somewhat unnerved to be doing this. It was hard enough to slam the door shut, what with all the skeletons I have, and now I' going to invite them to come out and play. I don't mean to be melodramatic. Quite the contrary. I'm talking about the ordinary, the mundane, the things that go into making our everyday because that is life. Sure we remember the big moments but it is in the other ninety-nine percent where we spend our time living. And that's what I want shed light on.
I have a suspicion that at the end of the year not only will I find that I have all that I'm allowed but, maybe more than I deserve.
Great piece Jeff!