So I've been trying to figure out where I'm going to be in 5 years.
As I'm hoping <hoping, hoping!> to go to grad school, there's always the possibility of the ivory towers, although I'm growing a little scared of that result. Not because of the daunting educational challenges required to climb the ivy to the windows, but in fear of climbing back out and down safely. If I do end up in this position, I'd like to be in a progressive liberal arts college. But this is a digression.
I'm trying to figure out how to carve out a niche artistically. I've developed a unique style of composition recently, involving creative use of electronics and applications of ideas and aesthetics that belong on an ethical playground. The two questions I always return to are 1. Who cares? and 2. Why?
1. I've had a horrible problem of finding performers for my music in PSU, and I'm afraid of this carrying on past my undergrad years. Additionally, the concert music climate in America seems to be growing more and more conservative. Leading to...
2. If there's so much stacked against me, am I not simply wasting my life away?
Unfortunately, I can't kick the composing habit, and I don't know why. I really, truly cannot work a 9 to 5, nor could I devote myself to research or even education. And as much as I may be interested in that, I already feel downright sick if I don't compose within five or six hours. It's really like an addiction.
And although this is probably a highly romanticized approach, I feel that there are a lot of problems in the world that, in this time and age, shouldn't exist. I see them, and I can communicate them, and if I don't, who will?
So I need to figure out how to carve out a niche of listeners. With the rise of the 'new music business,' there's a lot of open doors. I guess I have to find the right one...
C'est la vie.
P.S.: Happy Halloween.
As I'm hoping <hoping, hoping!> to go to grad school, there's always the possibility of the ivory towers, although I'm growing a little scared of that result. Not because of the daunting educational challenges required to climb the ivy to the windows, but in fear of climbing back out and down safely. If I do end up in this position, I'd like to be in a progressive liberal arts college. But this is a digression.
I'm trying to figure out how to carve out a niche artistically. I've developed a unique style of composition recently, involving creative use of electronics and applications of ideas and aesthetics that belong on an ethical playground. The two questions I always return to are 1. Who cares? and 2. Why?
1. I've had a horrible problem of finding performers for my music in PSU, and I'm afraid of this carrying on past my undergrad years. Additionally, the concert music climate in America seems to be growing more and more conservative. Leading to...
2. If there's so much stacked against me, am I not simply wasting my life away?
Unfortunately, I can't kick the composing habit, and I don't know why. I really, truly cannot work a 9 to 5, nor could I devote myself to research or even education. And as much as I may be interested in that, I already feel downright sick if I don't compose within five or six hours. It's really like an addiction.
And although this is probably a highly romanticized approach, I feel that there are a lot of problems in the world that, in this time and age, shouldn't exist. I see them, and I can communicate them, and if I don't, who will?
So I need to figure out how to carve out a niche of listeners. With the rise of the 'new music business,' there's a lot of open doors. I guess I have to find the right one...
C'est la vie.
P.S.: Happy Halloween.
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